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On 5/17/2023, 9:44:04 AM
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Another brain dump post to help me empty my brain.
My grandma loves to pick the bamboo shoots that grow in our backyard1. Naturally, for Mother's day, we spent some time picking bamboo shoots. The tip is quite prickly, so I can understand how it can be used as a medieval torture device.
Bamboo also acted as firewood and as a javelin. Pole-vaulting may have been possible with some of the thicker stalks, but none of us were brave enough to try it.
I was biking my normal route around the north part of San Jose on April 21st. It's a roughly 20-mile loop mostly on the Guadalupe River Trail and the San Antonio Creek Trail.
Given that this was a Friday afternoon around 5PM, I assume college had just let out. I saw, for the first time, beer pong and boys standing on roofs galore when I passed by Santa Clara University. I would have taken pictures, but I was too self-conscious.
When I biked along the San Tomás Expressway, I saw the license plate
And when I biked near the bay on the northern part of the San Antonio Creek Trail, I saw goslings for the first time this year! My cheap smartphone camera doesn't do it justice though.
I met up with Friend F yesterday to chat and bowl, and it was a lot of fun! I'm pretty sure this was my best game since league bowling in high school. The three missed pins were all ten pins. My first two games were 205 and 199, and I struck out all of the last frames.
We sat next to some guys who had bowled on the Fairfield HS team in the mid-2000's decade, and they were a ton of fun. Fairfield was the dominant team during my high school years (mid 2010's decade), and according to them they were dominant during their school time as well. It makes sense given that the local bowling alley lies in Fairfield.
I was reading through the Linux source code at
drivers/tty/n_tty.c when writing the previous blog post and noticed that there was a file called
drivers/tty/nozomi.c in the same directory. I asked my sister if that was a name or word she knew, and she looked at me with a funny face. Apparently, it was also the name of the character on her screen at the time; she was watching the anime Sonny Boy.
Nozomi means hope in Japanese. It's also the name of the HSDPA Broadband Wireless Data Card - Globe Trotter tty driver.
I was talking to my tech lead G over dinner and we got to the topic of music. G was explaining how Baroque Era and Romantic Era music is commonly thrown under the "classical music" umbrella, despite being separate from the Classical Era. I was talking about how the older, more religious Baroque Era music didn't appeal to me very much, nor did I understand it or the stories behind it very much, and that was probably because I wasn't brought up in a religious setting. G, on the other hand, was well-versed in the Christian religion and greatly appreciates live performances of such music.
On the other hand, the topic of Studio Ghibli movies came up, and I was telling G how I really appreciated contemporary Japanese anime music, and a nontrivial part of that is because the stories from the anime are bound to the music. We were talking about why Ghibli movies were so unique and timeless, about how they portray the sanctity of life, characterize love as a form of fateful encounters, render the pauses in everyday life, and illustrate immense, irreversible, sometimes tragic change. I was stumbling over words, because these are complex and powerful feelings, and somehow they are also embedded into the music.
"Those feelings might be closer to religion than you would think," G told me. That simple statement changed my entire view on religion. I had never thought about my personal beliefs as anything more than prejudices and wisdom gained through my own experienced, or passed down by relatives. It was never cohesive like any established religion. But here were epics that shaped my childhood and early adulthood, made me feel immense awe and tragedy, and also affected millions of other children who watched these movies or listened to these songs; what is that if not religion?
I was watching Episode 2 of Nekomonogatari Shiro, of the Monogatari anime series, and the following dialogue struck me. For context, Hanekawa is staying over at Senjyogahara's place, and Hanekawa prepared breakfast for the two of them.
S: Oh, that looks tasty. [Takes a bite into plain bread.] May I ask you some questions, Ms. Hanekawa? H: What is it? S: No, hold on. First... I have to be convinced of this unbelievable sitation. H: Wait, did I screw up something? S: Hmm... H: Umm... Ms. Senjyogahara? S: Ms. Hanekawa, do you know about salad dressing? H: Of course I know. You mean the stuff that's poured on salads occasionally? S: I see. I see. About the three fried-egg factions... What do you think of those who use Worcestershire sauce, soy sauce, or pepper? H: Oh, I heard rumors of people putting stuff on their fried eggs. S: Yup, yup. Did you realize we had butter and jam in the fridge? H: I saw them. You put them out for me yesterday. Oh, sorry. Did you want them? S: [Rips apart plain bread.] A few more questions. H: Go ahead. S: About your eating habits... H: My eating habits? I think my eating habits are very ordinary. S: Soy sauce for sushi? H: I don't dip. S: Dipping sauce for tempura? H: I don't dip. S: Sugar in yogurt? H: I don't put any. S: Ketchup letters on hamburgers or omelets? H: I don't write any. S: Sauce on okonomiyaki? H: I don't brush any. S: Salt in a rice ball? H: Not mixed in. S: How many sugars in your coffee after a meal? H: Black please. S: Okay. H: Oh, I get it now. I'm sorry, Ms. Senjyogahara, you're the type that uses salad dressing. That's why you were making that strange face. S: No, I wasn't aware that people who don't use dressing existed till now. I've never seen anyone eat fried eggs plain and put out plain bread. Are you one of those people vehemently opposed to seasoning? The type that enjoys the ingredients' flavors? H: It's not that. But isn't food delicious even without flavor? S: There's the comment that seals the deal. H: I'm just saying it's the same whether it has flavor or not. S: They say secrets don't come from questioning, but slips of the tongue. Thank you for that meal. [Washing dishes] I completely take back my assertion that our tastes in food are similar. You're like the polar opposite of a picky eater. Not that you have no preferences either. H: I'm sorry, Ms. Senjyogahara. I still don't really understand what you're saying. S: A taste of home, huh? That's not it either, I guess it just means you accept any flavoring, Ms. Hanekawa. In the extreme, I'd say you just need it to be edible and nutritious. Or just filling if it's not nutritious? H: Don't make me out to be some warrior! S: That you can taste is a burden. If you're not enjoying each ingredient's flavor, I guess it ends up being that you have a big heart. But I think something's wrong with living like that, Ms. Hanekawa. It's not something limited to your eating habits. You always, you know... accept anything and everything as it comes your way. To have something you detest is about as important as having something you love. Yet you accept everything that comes your way, right? That may be the case with me, and may be the case with Araragi. At least that's what I think. It's not that we shared tastes in food. It was merely that your tastes in food completely enveloped my tastes. No, I don't think I can call your preferences tastes. Because if you like anything and everything they all end up being the same thing in the end.
It struck me because I've always felt at odds with everyone else about food. I really like food both plain and not plain. I think plain bread or water is delicious, but the sauce on top is always delicious. There's really a lot of foods that I like, and I always like other people's cooking, but I will also like eating a lot of foods that others will not like or find bland.
But Senjyogahara's point is that Hanekawa's tastes extend past her eating habits. That refusing to dislike things means that you are dampening your true emotions. Hanekawa is known for being very smart, very polite and reserved, but this is because she is able to hide her emotions deep within herself until they explode in unhealthy ways.
I usually can't keep up with the banter in Monogatari, but this really got me wondering about how much Senjyogahara's analysis applies to me as well.
1. Interestingly, CT and NY are the only states that have passed laws about bamboo, at least by 2015.
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